Today our six year old started her new journey at her new school. Our normally chatty girl was somewhat quiet this morning while getting ready. She has adjusted well with our move to Tennessee, after all she is back to seeing her dad everyday and her big sis has been with us all summer, and normally is excited to try new things. Today however you could tell she was a little nervous.
She got up and dressed in her new pink shirt and shorts. She put on her socks and shoes. We brushed her teeth and brushed her hair. She grabbed her new backpack and out the door we went. In the car as we waited for the bus we made a video to pass the time and we talked.
She worried no one would talk to her, or no one like her glasses (you know things all 6 year olds worry about) My heart broken for her. The idea we had moved and she would not be with her friends had finally hit her. How do you convince a first grader everything will be ok when you are worried about the exact same things? I gave her the “You will be just fine, I know it” speech, but I worried all day. Worried if anyone would talk to her, worried if she would feel all alone,worried because that’s what moms do. She made it through the day and when we picked her up she was smiling. She loved her new teacher and breakfast was awesome she said. She said she had talked to a few new people and that she was sure she would have new friends soon. She was more relaxed than she was this morning and could not wait to get home and show me all she had brought home. She will be fine for she is strong, she is confident, she is a survivor. I will still worry, it’s what I do, but she will not let anything get in her way. And because of that I know she will be just fine.
Tomorrow our five year old goes to his introduction to kindergarten at his new school. The two will not be in the same school. JR will be going to a school that has a special classroom for children with autism. You can tell he is also nervous about going to a new school. Back in WV I knew all the teachers at the school. My older kids had went there years ago and so did my neice and nephew. I was on a first name basis with most of them so the anxiety about sending him to school was there but I knew enough people to keep an eye on him making it bearable to let him go.Tonight he said he will not be going to school tomorrow. He says he wants to stay little. I can tell he is scared even though he has few words to describe his feelings. He has cuddled more, kissed my forehead more and been by my side all night. With our daughter I was able to give her a pep talk and send her on our way. It’s not that simple with him. I know he will have a better opportunity here to receive a top notch education, but the familiar faces of home is what I need tonight to help me tell him it will be ok, I need them to tell me it will be ok.
So tonight as I did last night I will lay in bed praying for tomorrow. Praying he will be ok, that he will find his place in the new room, praying he will like his teacher and make new friends, praying for protection praying for comfort, praying because I don’t know what else to do. I worry about him.
Moving can bring about many fears and unknowns especially when you have kids. The only thing I know for a fact is that God is in control. He brought us here for a reason. He has been with us the whole way and He will be with us tomorrow. Our faith in His plan is strong even if we don’t know what the plan is. I am sure I will worry about him tomorrow but I know God would not have placed us here just to have me worry. I will hug him and love him as soon as he gets out and we will take this school year one day at a time. Pray for us.
From our beautiful chaos to yours may this school year be a success