A year ago we did not know how much we needed you. A year ago we didn’t even know you were a possibility, but here we are planning your 1st birthday for this weekend. What a difference a year makes.
You are the blessing we did not expect. Like a beautiful sunrise your smile wakes me in the early morning light. Your laughter is the song that warms my heart. We have shared so many wonderful memories with you in such a short amount of time. From holding up your head on your own, to rolling over, your first smile and first giggle, to army crawling and trying new foods we have watched you grow. You have filled a place in our hearts that we did not know way empty. We are so thankful for you.
I did not carry you within me, but I promise to carry you and be there for you the rest of my days. For it does not matter how you came to be you have always been my baby my beautiful gift from God. He knew we belonged together as a family and found a way to bring you to me. Adoption is beautiful.
The last 12 months has had its challenges, learning to be a family a 9 can be a little overwhelming at times. But I would not change a thing. And if I had to do it all over again I would. Getting to share all of your first things such as first sounds, first word (of course it was da-da), to seeing you now stand on your own is something I will treasure forever. You bring some much joy and laughter to our hearts.
For those that judge us and look down on us for taking in “another kid” let me just say this. We do not answer to you or your judgmental eyes. We only answer to God. He placed the calling to help those in foster care on our hearts and we are so thankful He did. Because we followed His plan for us we are now the parents of 7 amazing kids, 5 of which have been adopted. We have been able to keep a sibling group together, so even though they are not with their birth parents they are still together. They will get to grow up together, laugh together, argue together, go to school, have sleepovers, play sports, go on family vacations together because we were able to keep them together. They will not have to search or question about lost siblings when they are older because when the caseworker called we opened our hearts and home one more time….everytime. If we would not have stepped out in faith the chances of these four little ones being placed together are slim to none. Instead of talking about us behind our backs or staring at us like we are completely crazy, why not pray for us and keep your opinions to yourself. But that’s just my opinion.
I would not change a thing about being your mommy. The love I have for you and your brothers and sisters grows everyday. It’s hard to think it’s been a year already time has truly flown by. I am grateful for the early morning wake ups, the late night feedings,to us cheering on our favorite football team (Go Pack Go) and our cuddle time. I know you won’t stay this little for long. I cherish the moments. You will never fully understand how much you mean to me. I love you more than all the moons and stars in the sky.
What a difference a year makes.
From our beautiful chaos to yours don’t blink. Enjoy today for the gift it is they are only this little once.