Today started off with excitement in the air as JR woke up. The kids are on fall break this week. He decided to spend the week here with his younger siblings while our six year old went to my in-laws. But today he and his daddy were headed north to pick up his sister he “missed so badly.” He was excited. In his eyes it was an adventure, just him and his dad two guys taking on the world in the back seat of the Yukon. He got up, packed his activity bag, a snack bag, and waited as patiently as he could while his dad got ready. He told me goodbye and off they went. I came back into the living room to find our two youngest boys watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. Baby girl was laying in her pack-n-play babbling to herself. I thought to myself “Today is going to be a peaceful day.”
The morning went by as normal, we had breakfast, they played cars, and then they decided to watch a movie. When Disneys Cars was over we got dressed because the great outdoors was calling them. At least they waited for the dew to dry. They love being outside. It took them a few minutes to realize they both could swing on the swingset….at the same time. Normally if JR and Elissa are here we have a major problem, four kids and only two swings. Someone is always upset. I’ve already looked at bigger swing sets for next summer. They laughed and giggled all afternoon. They chased the dog and played cars in the floor box. They played in the dirt and ran relays races. It was so peaceful and so wonderful. The whole week has been like that.
The boys have been so good this week. We have had the occasional fuss because one of them was sleepy or one of them didn’t want to take his bath but all in all its been a good week. And I needed it. Lately I have felt so many emotions, I’ve been upset, felt lonely, been angry, and even felt trapped (dead battery in the car). I feel so lost here most days without my family and the few friends I have. I can’t just pick up the phone and call my bestie and say “Hey want to go grab a coffee and vent about the day?” Or call my dad and say “Hey can you come watch the Littles for a few minutes so I can get my hair cut?” Don’t take this the wrong way I love my kids, they are my everything, but since the move they are my only thing. And I am stressed. Trying to figure out what’s going on with our six year old and then dealing with all the daily things that come with being a mom of seven is taking its toll. And I know when Elissa gets back the peace will be gone. She has no control over it and until they figure out whats going on if its RAD or ADD or FAS or a combination of them all we will just get through each day one day at a time. So I needed today, maybe more than the boys did.
The two of them can make my heart smile. I can’t imagine life without them. They are the sweetest most kind boys you could asked for. Yes the can get a little, okay a lot, dirty and sometimes they can fight like cats and dogs. But today we had peace. There was peace and giggles and silly songs and dance breaks and milkshakes. Today was a day to just forget about all the problems in our beautiful chaos and just focus on my boys (baby girl too). Today was beautiful. How I wish everyday could be like this. How I wish JR and Elissa were here to enjoy the day with us. How I wish more days could be stress free like today. How I wish life was not so darn complicated.
From our beautiful chaos to yours sometimes you just have to be a three year old in an adult world. Take time to laugh, take time to play in the dirt, most important take time to just be with your little ones.